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It's 2010!! Happy new year/ new decade.

Attitudes are hard to change. You can say you've changed it all you want but with a change like that, the behavior has to reflect it for it to be a real change. It's so hard, but I want to be more of an active agent. I have to connect to life and claim it. I have a few things I need to work on in order to reach my goal of making the first leaps into adulthood.

1. It's okay not to be perfect at something. My fear of not doing something perfectly should not prevent me from trying. Some things MUST be done.

- I am 21 years old (close to 22) and I am just now having my first work experience.

While I am very grateful that I didn't have to work at a young age with no choice

in the matter, I wish I had started earlier if only for the sole purpose of being able.

I've always been the type to have low confidence in what I was doing and a

consequential fear that I was going to be reprimanded by someone for it. So I've

been working for a couple weeks now, and I still have this fear that I'm not doing

things right, which leads to me thinking my coworkers are going to notice and

complain about having to pick up my slack. I feel like I don't know what to do

sometimes and I feel like I'm going to be the only one lost, and everyone will judge

me and on top of that, I'm afraid of my supervisors saying something about my

incompetence. It sounds really extra and unnecessary, I know since I'm only working

a little retail job, but it's how I feel. Someone I work with said "Don't worry about

it, most of us don't always know what's going on it's really not that big of a deal." It's

really okay for me to be corrected. If I do something wrong, the worst that will

probably is that a supervisor or someone else will be like "listen you need to do a, b,

and c better"...... is that such an awful thing to have happen?

so they tell me that and i fix it. lol. shazam, problem solved, now I have to internalize

this so I don't panic whenever I have to go to work.